Do you ever have days where you...

Burst with love? Like it's coming out of your ears and you might as well just wear a sign on your back?

I know I sound sappy, but I can't help it. Mamo and Tato raised me in this really touchy-feely environment. They were always encouraging me to be creative, to think out loud, to laugh and to love strongly. Mamo is a tough one, but Tato showered me with kisses and hugs all the time. To the point of saturation, really. Always with an "I love you" before bed, before a flight, etc.

The mister came home last night from a 3 day business trip, and I was so happy to see him I was almost numb. I always steel myself for when he goes away, because it happens a lot, and I get a bit lonely sometimes. So I was deep into doing my own thing when he came back, and it took me a bit to adjust. But then I allowed myself to feel vulnerable, and I crawled into my nook (the space between his head and shoulder) in bed, and smelled his skin, his t-shirt, his hair.. it all smelled like home. I was giggling, it made me drunk with happiness. He kind of laughed and said "I've only been gone for 3 days, silly" (it's his way of telling me to stop being so clingy), and though technically that's true, we've been working so hard that we haven't had a proper cuddle for what feels like two weeks.

I think sometimes it would be nice if he were always as mushy as I am, to reciprocate every kiss and cuddle and adoring look, but he's not that kind of person. I think he feels a bit claustrophobic when I say " I need you, I need you, I missed you...". But all of our partners are people that are meant to be ours for a variety of reasons, and never obvious ones. Our witness to our lives, our best friend, our confidante, the person that looks over at us in the morning and would be happy just to lie next to us and hold our hand. We all feel the same in our hearts, but we all express it differently.

I am a hopeless romantic, a person that loves kisses, hugs, and hand-holding. I am a person that needs a mushy word at the end of a stressful day to help me smile. And I love with my whole entire being. I will never apologise for it, because that's just me. And today, I am positively bursting with love. Love for today because it's sunny. Love for a blessed life. Love for the fact that I am in my 30s and I act like I'm 5. Love for my family. And most of all, for being so in love with my wonderful husband that I want to shout it from the rooftops and kiss his face a million times.

Should I tell him that? Nah, I'll just relish the glow.